Rock Bottom
How do you know you have hit rock bottom? When you are sitting alone in your basement, on a Sunday night, with a shirt so thin that wearing nothing would probably have the same effect and pajama pants that are 3 times your size, eating whip cream out of a can and watching the AMAs and MTV cribs.
I almost cried. No reason necessary. It was just sad to be alone and feeling kinda crappy. I had no reason to, I had an awesome day, good time in svc, good studies, good returns, etc... so I don't understand why I felt so crappy. So of course I had to take some kind of action. I decided to become Jessica Action, Ms. Action if you're nasty... (sidenote: Janet's performance on the AMAs inspired that comment). I had a ton of laundry to do, so I did that, folded it all. I even folded my mom's laundry. I put the can of whip cream away, and just changed my state of mind. I decided that I can't pity myself, I can't excuse myself for any of my mistakes, shortcomings or faults. It's entirely my fault and no one else's. I need to stop being a brat.
This whole feeling lasted about 10 minutes, then I was on my merry way. I can switch up my mood in no time!!!
I almost cried. No reason necessary. It was just sad to be alone and feeling kinda crappy. I had no reason to, I had an awesome day, good time in svc, good studies, good returns, etc... so I don't understand why I felt so crappy. So of course I had to take some kind of action. I decided to become Jessica Action, Ms. Action if you're nasty... (sidenote: Janet's performance on the AMAs inspired that comment). I had a ton of laundry to do, so I did that, folded it all. I even folded my mom's laundry. I put the can of whip cream away, and just changed my state of mind. I decided that I can't pity myself, I can't excuse myself for any of my mistakes, shortcomings or faults. It's entirely my fault and no one else's. I need to stop being a brat.
This whole feeling lasted about 10 minutes, then I was on my merry way. I can switch up my mood in no time!!!
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